so i am in a terribly bitchy mood... so here goes the bitchiness!

1. twinkle twinkle little whore. you're at school, not jersey shore. you're a slutty, orange mess. PLEASE GO FIND A LONGER DRESS.

2. i'm sorry slut, but unfortunately, there isn't a 'clear history' button for your vagina.

3. she’s a slut, she’s like Wi-Fi without password, everyone enjoys it.

4. oops, sorry. i dropped the fuck i was about to give.

5. you're not a slut, so are you like a volunteer prostitute?

6. oh, i didn't tell you? it must have been none of your fucking business then.

7. shut up slut; the only test you can pass is the pregnancy one.

8. you're like 13. you smoke. you have sex. you wear more makeup than you do clothes. your parents must be so proud.

9. men are born between a woman's legs and spend the rest of their lives trying to get back in between them, cause there's no place like home.

10. life is NOT a garden, don't be a hoe.

i didn't have as many bitchy pictures as i wanted. :/

but here's to bitchiness. although the mood changed to bawling in the middle.

right now i'm feeling like i cannot breathe. like i just... am really upset and i have no idea why. i just wanna cry but they is really no reason to feel that way. i was fine.

i guess it's just the feelings of guilt and not being good enough. who really knows at this point? and i blame the stupid bitch who made me this way. i don't even know what to do at this point. i miss him. i miss him so much. but he's with someone else, so i'm leaving it alone, because if two people are happy, i'm not gonna fuck that up. i'm just not because you know? it's not right. i just... am a mess right now. i want to go home. i want to close my eyes and not open them, but everytime i do that, i miss him more and more because it brings up memories of things that i don't want to think about.

1. i want you to hurt.
i want you to miss me.
i want you to realize that i'm not there anymore.

2. trust me, i know how it feels. i know exactly how it feels to cry in the
shower so no one can hear you, waiting for everyone to be asleep so you can fall
apart, for everything to hurt so bad you just want it all to end. i know exactly
how it feels.

3. tell him I hate him. tell him i don't need him.
tell him to have a great life without me.
tell him he means nothing to me.
just don't tell him I said this with tears in my eyes.

4. what's worse than being blindly in love with a guy
and not seeing him for what he really is,
is being head over heels in love with a guy
and seeing him for exactly what he really is.
the asshole, the cheater, the guy who breaks your heart over and over again,
and still loving him and still not being able to get over him.

5. want to know something?
the time i was with you was the happiest i've been in a long time.
that's part of the reason it's so hard to get over you and move on,
because you were such a significant part of my life and the thought of losing you killed me.
now I feel like i'm never going to be happy again, at least not as happy as i was with you.
to tell you the truth, i'd give anything to get back that time,
even go through the hurt again.

6.  the worst feeling is when someone makes you feel special,
then suddenly leaves you hanging,
and you have to act like you don't care at all.

7.  i don’t want you to forget about me anymore.
i want you to remember all that we went through,
and i want you to change your mind about us.

8. it's kinda messed up isn't it? 
how all of a sudden someone just wakes up and decides to never talk to you again.
no reason. no explanation. no words said.
they just leave you hanging like you never meant anything to them,
and what hurts the most is how they made it look so easy.

 

 

 

 

 

 

9. i miss how you never gave a shit,
but you always seemed to care.
i miss the way you would be such a dick,
 but you were somehow always there.
i miss how we talked, for hours on end,
but most of all, more than anything, i miss being just friends.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

10. i hate how much you mean to me.
i hate that i cant get over you.
i hate that you try to hook up with my friends.
i hate how you act like i dont exist unless you're drunk.
i hate i love you so much and gave you everything,
and you dont care about me.
i hate that i know your not worth it but i still keep coming back.
and i hate how you make me feel just thinking about your smile,
when you never think about me at all.

soo i guess lately i've been falling apart. i mean i'm having roommate issues and my ex isn't talking to me anymore. i mean, i guess that's a good thing, but it doesn't stop it from hurting like fucking hell. i don't have enough money for anything anymore... and well, my list could go on. but here's my post about strength and moving on.

1. "i believe that everything happens for a reason.people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." --marilyn monroe

2. "loving somebody is gonna hurt and the sooner you let yourself feel that, the sooner you'll be able to love again."-dawson's creek.

3. one day when you're happy with your life and just enjoying it, you'll get an unexpected text. maybe by this time you've already forgotten his number, maybe not. and it'll be him, wanting to "talk". wait, hold up. remember all those tears you shed, while he shed none? remember those corny pick up lines, remember the hurt? look at how happy you are now. yeah, that's what i thought. don't answer that text.

4. it's time i start thinking about myself again, and not you. it's time i be strong it's time i let you go. it's about time i be happy; it's about time i leave you alone.

5. of course, you're going to get your heart broken. and it isn't just going to happen once, but a lot. that's just part of growing up, and it makes you stronger. then you can handle it better next time. you may not get through it yourself, but your friends will help you through it. and you'll be a stronger person because of it. then one day someone will come along, and it'll all pay off and no one will ever break your heart again.

6. if you're brave enough to say goodbye, life will reward you with a new hello.

7. sometimes you have to be strong for yourself. you have to know that you're a good person and a good friend. what's meant to be will end up good and what's not - won't. love is worth fighting for, but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting. at times, people need to fight for you. if they don't, you just have to move on and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you. hopefully, people realize great things when they come around and don't lose something real. always fight, until you can't anymore, and then be fought for.

8. don't worry, he'll miss you. you're the best he could get, and he blew it. don't let him make you think for one second that this was your fault. it's not. he screwed up, and you did absolutely nothing wrong. you gave him your heart, and you trusted him to keep it and protect it, but he couldn't. and honestly, he's not mature enough. he's not smart enough. if he was smart, he would have cared for you with every fiber of his being and been with you every spare second he could. but he didn't, and now he's gone. but don't you cry. don't call him telling him you miss him. don't IM him, don't message him, don't comment him, don't talk to him in the hallways.

9.  i realized that that I was holding on to something that didn't exist anymore.

10. there's no doubt: breakups suck. but in the first few hours, or days, or weeks that follow, there's 
one important truth you need to recognize; somethings can't and shouldn't be fixed. especially
that loser who dumped you or forces you to dump him. it's over for a reason, & deep down inside
you probably know what that reason is.

&&i really recommend the song strong by jordyn taylor. the lyrics are here:: 

Bet you thought that I'd be broken.
Mascara streakin' down my cheek.
Devastated, out the door way;
In a daze, a state of disbelief.
I bet you liked that; seeing me get mad.
But, baby I wont satisfy your need.
I've already been there, done that.
I'll be fine, even if you leave.

Lalalalalaaa ohhh
I don't need you anymore;
Lalalalalaaa ohhh
And don't you know, 

That You, were the one that made me strong;
You made me stand up on my own,
With every cruel intention, you helped me find my 
Independence.
Yeah it's all because of you, 
That I have the strength I do,
To turn my pain to passion, instead of crashin'.
Boy I'm thankin' you. 
Boy I'm thankin you.

Thinking back on how you changed me,
Everytime, you tried to put me down.
Even though you really hurt me,
Underneath, myself is what I found.
So take a look inside these eyes now, 
And say the things you want to say to me.
Cuz I've already spread my wings out; 
And your the one, the one who set me free.

Lalalalalaaa ohhh
I don't need you anymore
Lalalalalaaa ohhh
And don't you know,

That you were the one that made me strong,
You made me stand up on my own
With every cruel intention you helped me find my 
Independence
Yeah it's all because of you 
That I have the strength I do 
To turn my pain to passion instead of crashin'
Boy I'm thanking you, 

For all the tears I cried
For all the sacrafice
For all the drama
'cuz in the end it made me stronger
So trust me I'll be fine
Baby I'll survive
Without you, in my life, but I want you to know

That you 
Were the one that broke my heart 
But I won't fall apart
No.. I'm so moving on
Cuz babyyy

You were the one that made me strong,
You made me stand up on my own
With every cruel intention you helped me find my 
Independence
Yeah it's all because of you 
That I have the strength I do 
To turn my pain to passion instead of crashing

Boy I'm thanking you, 
One that made me strong
Lalalalalaaa ohhh
Boy I'm thankin you
One that made me strong
Lalalalalaaa ohhh
Boy I'm thanking you
Lalalalalaaa ohhh